My mind is scattered. Maybe its supposed to be that way so I don't think or remember. To be just like this forever. How can I do what needs to be done when my heart says no not again. Should I choose a job just for the sake of a job and be unhappy an unemployed again a years line down? I don't want to do that again. I am not sure I want to be in the field I am in again and I keep getting offer for jobs my skills are less than steller in. I suck in the financial department They dont honestly want to hire me though I can make them think i am perfect for the job probably. Its not in my heart though so what is?