I am feeling a little fish out of water. I am human starving for affection. Yes of course I get the love and hugs of my little one. But I am there for him when he needs me and its to let him know he can count on mommy, mommy is strong. Thing is I am not strong. I sometimes wish for my mommy back. I miss her hugs so much those all knowing hug that mean I love you and you can do it, everything will be okay. I feel alone and I have no one. I wonder how the hell I got so affectionate in the cold emotionless family of mine. Oh yeah the women might cry at the drop of a hat at a soap opera on TV in my family but when it concerns their own you get nothing. They are all wound up in themselves and apparently know all. Their way is the right way and it is the "Word!" Does not car to see or ask anything about me cause apparently again They know me better than myself. HAHAHAHA! Oh if they only KNEW! Sadly they do not know me at all. I just show them what they want to see. I cant truly be me with them they would disbelieve. Im tired so tired. I dont belong and Im starving for affection that is true not just a stiff hug of how do you do. Hold me carress me comfort me let me feel your love and let me know everything is going to be alright.